And When She Smiles
Blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted.
And suddenly images replay themselves in my mind.
Frozen forever in the album of memory;
Head tipped back,
Hair spilling onto shoulder,
Joy and laughter written on the faces of our younger, better, hope filled selves…
I remember the first time I heard it. Sitting on a bus on the way to Ayr to meet someone special – they made the tape for me playing on the personal stereo and this came on – no words – just music. Music which spoke of so much, of joy, of hope, of life...
And before you know it that moment becomes a day, a day a month, a month a year, and a year a life time.
A life-time of shared moments and days, a life-time of memories.
But what happens when for whatever reason the one who shared the moments is no longer there to share the memories with?
When the one who shared the music, and introduced you to some of it, is no longer there to dance with to it?
When the chords and words heard, only magnify the empty space beside you and bring tears to your eyes.
Regret, sorrow, and grief mingle with the joy of that first moment …
Matthew 5:4 ‘Blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted.’
Relationships end for all kinds of reasons –
Life happens and relationships break down, or a loved one dies –
And we find ourselves alone,
In a desert we never expected,
Picking up the pieces of life,
Sifting through memories;
Lord wherever we find ourselves
Remind us that you are not far away,
That you meet us there, in that moment, in that place;
Your heart breaking for us and with us;
You wipe the tears from our eyes,
And you promise that you will bring us through this,
Encircling and surrounding us with your love and concern
And providing for our every need.
Father let your love fill the empty space,
Let your touch be on our shoulder,
Let your voice whisper your love in our ear
Bringing us safe through the desert of tears,
Give us hope for the future,
And restore us gently in time to life …
Life in all its fullness with and through you.