Daily Worship

I’m Weary Struggling

Albert Bogle November 13, 2013 0 0

Isaiah 40: 28-3

Do you not know?
    Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
    the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
    and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
    and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
    and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
    will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint.

Lord,
I’m so tired!
I haven’t slept for a week 
I can’t get it out of my mind
I keep remembering
The things that were said
Some things should never be spoken out loud
They only wound 
I feel sick in the pit of my stomach
When I think it over again
My head is light
I’ve not eaten for days
I say to myself  “its going to be all right
I speak, 
I hear myself speaking
telling the story over and over again
But my words are repetitive
I’m on auto-pilot
I’m afraid to say what I think
I’m confused to say what I want
And I won’t be tempted to say what I’d like to happen
Help me understand myself
Help me understand what it is that is happening to my world

Lord,
I’m weary struggling.
I’m exhausted 
There is no fight left in me
I feel so alone carrying this wound
these words
these feelings
Everywhere I turn
I see others just like me
In my situation
I hate being in this place
Oh God 
Rescue me

Lord,
Give me one hour of sleep
To rest
To be still
To be silent
To breathe again
 

 

 

Albert Bogle, St Andrew's Church, Bo'ness