In this meditation Amanda MacQuarrie writes about shame. It explores the all too common feelings of guilt, anxiety, humiliation, and hurt that can weigh us down and physically turn us in on ourselves and against the world. Amanda illustrates this pain while showing us that it is possible to unwind, to relax our grip and that ultimately we can find comfort in the presence of the love of God.
Even the word makes us cringe!
It diminishes us,
Turns us inward,
Ready to run,
Ready to hide,
Ready to turn away from the light.
That sinking feeling inside,
It’s a heavy cloak – shame,
But it’s not God-given!
Maker and keeper,
The One whose love fills us with wonder,
We bow before you,
But we long to run,
We look at ourselves,
At our messy lives,
At the ways in which we let you down,
At what we think of as failure,
And we cringe and shy away from you,
Our heads bow in shame, our shoulders droop in defeat.
You meet us here,
Arms wide open,
Forgiving and loving,
And instead of rebuking us,
You whisper our name,
Tenderly putting your finger beneath our chin,
And lifting, so that our gaze meets yours…
You take off that old dirty cloak of shame, and you cloak us in your grace, your mercy,
Because you love us,
Not because of who we are,
But because of who you are!
What love, what mercy, what grace!